My Rating: 3.5/5
Synopsis: A long time ago, Alex met a blue eyed boy, or, she thought she had. After being diagnosed with paranoia and schizophrenia, hallucinations became part of her every day reality. For her, it’s hard to know if what she sees is real or not. However, as she comes to a new school, her biggest struggle, apart from surviving, is finding out if the asshole in her class is actually her long lost childhood friend or of it’s just her brain playing games.
People say teenagers think they’re immortal, and I agree with that. But I think there’s a difference between thinking you’re immortal and knowing you can survive. Thinking you’re immortal leads to arrogance, thinking you deserve the best. Surviving means having the worst thrown at you and being able to continue on despite that. It means striving for what you want most, even when it seems out of your reach, even when everything is working against you. And then, after you’ve survived, you get over it. And you live. – Francesca Zappia
This is an easy, contemporary, romance, starring an unlikely and unreliable narrator, along with an unlikable love interest. It provides balance by alternating between funny and serious topics which makes it a lighter read. Also, the romance was slow burning, genuine and heart warming.
A downside for this book is that the author doesn’t delve deep into the mental illness aspect of the book. It’s not informative or helpful for understanding this illness at all. Mostly, the paranoia and schizophrenia are used to add angst and to make the plot line more interesting and not for providing insight or to teach the audience.
Moreover, the characterization was a little off for her love interest, he lacked depth and clarification. It would’ve been much more interesting to have a fully fleshed out autistic character, with which our protagonist falls in love with despite his quirks and differences.
Also, I found a review by an angry reader that accuses Zeppia of not doing her research and getting schizophrenia all wrong.
Overall, if you’re looking for a book that portraits mental illness in a realistic light or to take something worthwhile out of it, this book is not for you. However, if you want to read a contemporary romance in which the characters make each other better and which deals with some serious topics, then this book is for you.